365 days // 12.02.17

“I hope one day I’ll pop into your head, and you’ll think ‘I shouldn’t have let her go'”. – Unknown.

Today marks three hundred and six five days since my world fell to pieces. One year ago today everything changed, and nothing has been the same since.

Three hundred and sixty five days have passed since the moment I wish those words could be reversed, those feelings could be removed, and that broken heart could be pieced back together. It’s impossible to describe the feeling of your heart shattering in your chest, while tears endlessly stream down your cheeks. There’s no way to describe the sinking feeling every time their name comes into conversation, or you get reminded of a memory that you once shared together.

The endless nights laying in bed wide awake just thinking about where it all went wrong, thinking of ways you can undo everything and piece it all back together again. Racking your brain to come up with a solution, a way that everything can be put right again.

But unfortunately sometimes you’re the only one playing the game, a game that requires two players. I will continue to fight for what I believe in, until you don’t want me to fight no more. But until that day I will fight every minute, of every day to put you back where they belong, by my side.

Not a day goes by where I haven’t been reminded of you in some way; a photo, a memory, or even just a passing thought…your always in the back of my mind, and I can quite safely say that I don’t believe that feeling will ever part with me.

As you grow up you go through heart break, you think you love people, but until you really love someone, you don’t what what it feels like to have your whole world come crashing down on you right in front of your eyes. I honestly don’t believe I knew what love was until I met you. If you asked me three years ago if I’d ever been in love, I would have honestly said yes, and meant it. But looking back now, I had no idea…I didn’t know that feeling of missing someone so deeply that you feel it in your heart, the sheer excitement you feel when you are reunited after just a short period of time apart. The smile that stretches from ear to ear just by hearing their name or seeing them from across the room. Honestly, I had no idea.

If you’re reading this then please believe me when I say… I don’t resent you, I don’t regret you, and I could never forget you. I thank you. I thank you for giving me the best three years a girl could have ever wished for. I thank you for all the laughter and the memories that we have shared together. For the inside jokes, the secrets, and the moments nobody else would understand. You and I had something special, something unique…and no matter what anyone says, that will never go away. You are still you, and I am still me, and we will forever have that bond.

Love, Luce ♥

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The Grampians – Day 2: The Balconies and Reeds Lookout // 31.10.16

“The best journeys in life are those that answer questions you never thought to ask” – Rick Ridgeway

After leaving Fish Falls we took a quick detour via the Wartook Reservoir on the way to our next destination…The Balconies and Reeds Lookout.

The reservoir was really pretty, and I can imagine they get some pretty amazing sunsets mirroring on the water here. The water was really calm, and the area felt like a relaxing, tranquil setting.

109grampians-3Thankfully the walk to The Balconies and Reeds Lookout was only around 1km in distance, as by this point in the day we had done quite a lot of walking. We walked across the cute wooden bridges and climbed over the piles of rocks to make our way to the lookout.

113On the trail to the lookout, there were some amazing views of the mountains and local reservoirs. We climbed our way over the rocks to get a closer look and thought they would make an awesome backdrop.

116I really enjoyed this viewpoint as you could see a combination of the mountains, lake, and trees all in one shot.

117111When looking out from The Balconies it was clear to see how high we had climbed – look how tiny the trees look down there! From this viewpoint, I could see a ledge sticking out called Reeds Lookout. I couldn’t see a footpath to get to it so may have had to do some offroading to get there (may not have been the safest idea so I wouldn’t recommend going solo, but my friend and I checked out the area first).

119118We climbed over the barrier and climbed down the rocks to get to this awesome ledge. Although you can’t really see it in the photo, it was pretty much a straight drop surrounding this ledge. My friend Zoe took the above two photos from The Balconies lookout so you can see how the ledge sticks out separately from the rest of the cliff.

grampians-4grampians-1The above two photos were taken by my friend Skye, who I convinced to come down to the ledge with me to be photographer…however, I think I almost gave her, and the rest of our group a heart attack when I jumped (oops). The view from this ledge was incredible, you could literally see for miles. The trees looked like tiny dots, and the mountains in the distance look so small in comparison to the size we know they are.

114115Although this was a very last minute, spontaneous hike, it definitely had some of the most beautiful, picturesque views of our trip.

That’s the last of The Grampians series – I hope you enjoyed seeing a snippet into my trip and the rest of the posts can be viewed now on my blog.

Love, Luce ♥

Great Ocean Road // 26.11.16

“True friendship isn’t about being inseparable, it’s about being separated and nothing changes” – Unknown.

6.jpgBefore I came to Australia one of the few things I knew I really wanted to do was the Great Ocean Road. However, I didn’t want to just jump on a tour bus and let a guide do all the talking…I wanted to go with friends, on a road trip, on an adventure.

Jen and Rach have been two of my best friends since 2011 when we met at a summer camp in America. It had been five years since I’d seen Jen, and four years since Rach, so when they both happened to be in Melbourne the same weekend as I was, we knew we had to make this trip happen.

4Since arriving in Australia this is the first time I’ve been to any ‘proper’ beaches. It actually felt quite homely being by the sea again…growing up by the beach, no matter where in the world you are, if you’re near the sea, it feels like home. I love the sound of the ocean, the smell of the sea breeze, and the salt in the air. Although it was absolutely freezing, we ran around, took some silly photos and enjoyed the fresh air.

23We left super early in the morning so we could make the most of the day and make multiple trips along the way. The above photos were taken in Torquay, and the upcoming ones were in Lorne and Apollo Bay, before making it all the way to the Twelve Apostles.

15Of course we had to attempt to get a picture with the iconic Great Ocean Road sign. Trying to time a jump in the smallest timeframe where no cars were in the back of the photo was a massive fail…this was the best shot we could get – HA! Better than nothing though ay?

10I am a huge fan of my polaroid camera and aim to try and take a photo on any adventure so I can secure it in my scrapbook and look back at the memories in years to come. I always aim to take a photo of the polaroid in the location as I love the effect it has, and if for some reason I ever lose the polaroid, I’ve always got a copy of it!

1213.jpgThe main aim of our trip was to make it to the Twelve Apostles, and I’m not going to lie at times I didn’t think we would ever make it…it’s soo far from Melbourne! I’m so glad we made it that far and got to see the apostles. Although it’s a long drive it is 100% worth it!

9Once we’d reached the apostles, the water was so clear and blue! The beaches surrounding the Apostles are protected so the public cannot access this area. However, I am actually super happy that they’ve done this here as it has really preserved the area. There’s no litter, no damage, just fresh sand, and smooth waves.

78We aimed to take a few quick snaps once we’d made it to the Apostles, however in true Melbourne style the heavens opened, so we ran for cover. I could honestly have stood and stared at these rocks for ages, they are so unique and there is so much detail to see. Each rock is one of a kind, and there are plenty of information boards around telling you about the history of the Apostles.

14When editing photos I found this adorable shot of Jen that she must have taken while Rach and I were galavanting around on the rocks. I think she looks amazing in it, such a natural shot!

11I had the best adventure with these girls, and I’m so glad we managed to make it happen. Hopefully it won’t be another five years before we adventure together again.

The Great Ocean Road is definitely a place I would love to return to if I ever get the opportunity.

Love, Luce ♥

Kayla Itsines GWR attempt // 17.11.16

“Your body can be your best friend or your worst enemy. It all depends on how you treat it” – Unknown.

For those that know me I have been an avid follower of Kayla Itsines and her workout programmes for a number of years. Back in 2013 I was bought her Bikini Body Guide as I needed some motivation to get back into working out, and everything I was previously doing just wasn’t cutting it anymore. I’m sure as many of you know, if you don’t have the motivation to go to the gym, sooner or later it’s gonna stop altogether. Well that’s where I was at, I was lacking motivation, I wasn’t enjoying the workouts I was doing when I got there…and overall I just wasn’t getting anything out of it anymore.

That’s where Kayla came into it. I started her programme and although I found it hard at first, I stuck at it…and in no time I was seeing results. All be it, they were small, they were results, and this was the first time in a long time I actually felt like I was getting somewhere. I was hooked. Unfortunately after starting and stopping over the last couple of years, work got in the way, I moved to the other side of the world and I just didn’t have the time to get back into the swing of things.

Until now…Kayla was holding a Guinness World Record Attempt bootcamp in Melbourne! Unfortunately none of my friends were interested/free at the time, so I figured I would just go alone (this is waaaay out of my usual comfort zone). 

I went along and made friends with these two girls who were waiting in the line next to me, this definitely made me feel a lot more at ease. We took photos together and set down our yoga mats side by side. The whole vibe of the event was so welcoming and I genuinely felt like I’d met so many of these people before just because we all shared a passion for the same thing!

DJ TigerLily was playing throughout the event and Kayla and Tobi led the workouts up on stage. Overall we broke not one, not two, but FIVE world records…how insane is that?

  1. Most people doing star jumps.
  2. Most people doing squats.
  3. Most people doing sit ups.
  4. Most people doing lunges.
  5. Most people running in place simultaneously.

I’ll pop a few pictures below from the event – excuse the crappy quality (iPhone 4s isn’t the best, but then again…it’s better than nothing).

I genuinely had the best time, and it gave me the motivation I needed to kickstart my workouts again! You will often find me in the gym rocking my Kayla Itsines GWR attempt t-shirt! Fingers crossed there will be some more bootcamps I can attend before my time in Australia comes to an end.

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If you’re in a similar boat to me and you just need to try something new then I would highly recommend to buy Kayla’s bikini body guide...or try out her free 7 day free trial…you won’t regret it!

“Small progress, is still progress”.

Love, Luce ♥

Thirteen Years.

“True friendship resists time, distance, and silence” – Isabel Allende

Someone once told me that a true friendship will never end, you may go your separate ways, but you will always find your back in the end. I never really believed this until recently. For those that don’t know I have recently packed up my whole life and moved to the complete opposite side of the world; Australia. It was time for a fresh start, time to get away, and time to try and find me again.

Twenty Sixteen was a tough year and I feel like most people will be glad when it’s over.

Obviously in true fashion of the twenty-first century, as soon as my trip was all booked i broadcasted it to the world of Facebook. Now, of course you get the ‘fake friends’ that message you deciding that they just must see you before you leave. The genuine friends that are actually excited for you, but sad that you’re leaving them behind. And then the long lost friends that are intrigued to know how you did it and want to get in touch.

Well, were going to be talking about the latter…the long lost friends.

Shortly after posting this status an old friend got in touch asking how I did it as she was intrigued to do something similar…we got talking, and she decided to book a similar trip to arrive in Melbourne a month after me. Now this wasn’t just any old friend, this was my best friend from primary school. A girl I hadn’t seen, or barely spoken to for that matter in over thirteen years!

It’s now been around two months since arriving in Melbourne, and she recently got in touch again and we agreed to meet for a coffee. Somehow I ended up getting lost and a 15 minute tram turned into a 3 1/2 hour walk, but I eventually made it to her in time for a late lunch and we sat and chatted for hours. It felt like we had never been apart, like the two eleven year old girls we were the last time we were together.

It’s so nice to rekindle old friendships, especially thirteen years later as adults reminiscing on the times we shared aged four to twelve.

Love, Luce ♥

What We Learnt at Summer Camp // CaitoTaylo

“Where strangers become friends, and friendships last forever” – Unknown.

My friend (and hopefully soon to be flat-mate) Caitlin has a YouTUBE channel. She uploads lots of fun videos, many of which are related to camp…partly because of her job, but mainly because camp is the amazing, so why the heck not?

I recently teamed up with her to do a video on ‘What we learnt at Summer Camp’.

DISCLAIMER: This is Caitlin’s video that I am simply sharing. The filming and editing are all Caitlin, I am simply just in it!

I have linked the video below if you want to have a watch.

I introduce my YouTUBE debut…

Please check out some of her other videos and subscribe for more of CaitoTaylo.

I’m still contemplating the idea of making my own channel – do I just jump in the deep end and do it? (Answer the poll / comment below).

Love, Luce ♥

Little Tommy Tucker // 22.10.16

“As we grow up, we realise it is less important to have a ton of friends, and more important to have real ones” – Unknown.

3.jpgEarly morning starts, breakfast, and catching up with your best friends…what better way to start your Saturday? After nearly two weeks of not seeing each other, it was so nice to have a good old natter and catch up on the past fortnight.

2Since being in Melbourne, I have learned there are cute little cafes around every street corner. Wooden walls, fresh plants, and bright lighting are such a common theme…but I love it! Everything is so ‘Pinterest’ and vibrant and you can’t help but be in a happy mood when you’re in these places. They are the perfect location for a catch-up with friends over great food, coffee, and fresh juices.

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Seasonal Mushroom Bruschetta, Balsamic, Apple, Almonds & Fetta on Rye.

Jen and I both got the mushroom bruschetta, it was delicious! Just imagine; toasted rye, crunchy apple with mushrooms, along with a soft poached egg, drizzled with sweet balsamic…incredible! Pair this with a Banana, Mango, and Passionfruit Hepburn organic juice and you have the perfect match.

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Raspberry and White Chocolate Crumble Muffin

As we were leaving we happened to notice the cake cabinet, how could you say no to this Raspberry and White Chocolate muffin? A soft muffin with raspberry jam, crumble topping and white chocolate chunks. The perfect mid-morning snack.

If you live in Melbourne and want to visit Little Tommy Tucker then head to their website, or you can find them in Bentleigh…would highly recommend.

Love, Luce ♥

Moving Down Under…An Update.

“I want to see the world, follow a map to it’s edges and keep going. Forgo the plans, trust my instincts. Let curiosity be my guide. I want to change hemispheres. Sleep with unfamiliar stars and let the journey unfold before me” – Unknown.

September 6th, 2016 I said goodbye to everyone and everything I knew. Passport in hand, I got on that plane and went to the furthest destination possible…AUSTRALIA! 17,205 miles away from the place I had called home for the last five years, the country I have lived in for the last twenty-four years, and the place where everyone I know and love will be staying.

Now, this is something I’ve talked about doing on and off for the last five years, but I never thought it would happen – I don’t think anyone did.

Twenty-Sixteen has quite possibly been one of, if not, the toughest of my life so far. I’ve lost loved ones, been through heartbreak, changed job, moved house – and that’s only the half of it.

People say that when life changing events happen (no matter how big or small) you find yourself, you begin to learn who you really are. I don’t feel this way, I couldn’t feel less like myself if I tried.

Deep down I thought that by jumping on that plane and leaving all the pain, heartbreak, and suffering behind it would help to start the healing process. I thought that I would start to learn who I am again. We are now over a month into the journey and I am yet to find myself, yet to heal, and yet to let go.

There will always be a huge hole in my life, but I need to stop trying to fill it with what used to be. I need to learn to put myself outside of my comfort zone, to embrace new challenges and beginnings – but right now this just doesn’t feel possible.

More than anything I want to enjoy my time in Australia. This has been my dream for as long as I can remember, but the one thing that is holding me back is my heart – that emotional connection with what I left behind the moment I stepped foot on that plane 34 days ago.

Then there’s TimeHop – I currently hold a love-hate relationship with this app. I love that I get daily reminders of memories with my friends and family, but it also allows you to reminisce on the times that are causing you so much heartbreak. Right now I’m not able to filter these memories…not that I will ever want to (or be able too).

Sometimes you meet people who not only hold a place in your life, but they hold a place in your heart too, and once they’re in your heart, there’s no escaping.

Love, Luce ♥

 

Australia Leaving Party // 03.09.16

“We live in a beautiful world that is filled with beauty, charm, and ADVENTURE” – Unknown.

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Saturday 3rd September 2016: My family and close friends travelled from far and wide to attend my leaving party that my family were throwing me. Mum decked out the house with everything red, white and blue, or covered with an Australian flag.

There were banners, bunting and balloons everywhere you looked, not to mention the amazing cakes they got made for me. With cute little icing koala and kangaroo figurines, they fit the theme perfectly.

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And as if the huge cake wasn’t enough to feed everybody (turns out it was more than enough and could have easily fed the whole street), they also got these cute cupcakes made in two designs. And, if you know me well…you’ll know I love cupcakes!

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Friends and Family had travelled from all over to be there which meant so much to me. From Leeds to Plymouth, to Wales and everywhere in between, everyone made such an effort! It was so nice to have everyone I care about in one room together, even if it were only for a few hours.

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I think this is the first time in at least the last 5+ years that all five of the girls (cousins) have all been together at the same time…this definitely called for a photo opportunity.

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Photo bombing and funny family photos are always a hit – and I absolutely LOVE all the photo props they bought! This photo is of my mum and her brother (my uncle) with my sister and I sneaking in the background.

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My friend Stacey and I, who I met at Secondary school 13 years ago now! And Arron who I met 5 years ago at summer camp in America, and we’ve stayed in touch ever since. I still can’t believe he travelled from Wales to be there…such a great friend!

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My mums best friend Sue came by which was so lovely, if I have a friendship like theirs when I’m older then I will be one happy lady. Look how happy they are…

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For this one to come literally made everything perfect, and to see the bond him and Archie have melts my heart. I hope this continues in years to come and these moments don’t fade away.

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As per usual, I don’t have any photos with my Dad (he tends to stay in the kitchen out of the way when parties are going on, he keeps himself to himself and chats to his friends and family out of all of the mayhem). Here’s one with my mum, I really like this photo…it’s one of those ‘in the moment’ photos.

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Thank you so much to everyone who came, I had the best time.

Love, Luce ♥